Sunday, March 09, 2003

Coulda, Shoulda, Woulda?
Past, Present, Phuture?


I wish I could reach to the pure detachment of time; detachment of places and people from past or present. How can we live each moment as brand new as it happens? It seems almost impossible. When I go back to a place that I've built up towers of memories in there, I miss the moment that I am in, the very present time, the very present moment that is passing me by and is supposed to be joyful like love making, I miss it because I'm replaying the past in my mind. Like I am stuck in a cage of memories. How could I reach the pureness of moment? a sort of wide awake consciousness of NOW. Is time just a theory in our minds or it actually exists? If it's just a theory why can't we over-write a piece of present on the past? And if it exists why can't I feel the absolute joy of present time? I wish I could tear apart the past and live life moment by moment.
Never mind about the future. That WILL never exist.