Saturday, April 26, 2003

Should we speak out or not?

I've been in situations that I speak out my mind and once the words are out there, I regret the hell out of my brain. Oh god! Why did I say that? Shit! Damn it! etcetra etcetra. In those moments I think to myself honesty is just too much for people. I am not going to speak out my brain like this again. The world doesn't deserve the truth. blah blah bloody blah. And I tried to be like that, not a truth teller - not that I am a liar or something, I just keep the truth to myself, I guess I am a hider as oppose to a liar - and I thought it's a rule in adulthood world therefore I should feel mature when I hide a truth, but I don't. It's a fake pseudo glibby disgusting maturity which suites just those who want to play life cool; but they are so NOT cool.

And then I've been in very unique situations that I don't speak out and I don't put myself out there and the situation goes on waste. I am talking about those unique moments that happen once in a lifetime and you have your chance to step up and toss the truth to the face of the moment. So, shall we?

Sunday, April 13, 2003

Moore guts

It takes a lot Moore guts to criticize your own people using a broad range media such as cinema and it takes even Moore guts to go on to a victorious Oscar stage and instead of "yakking a bunch of names" and "thanking the whole world that made this happened" kinda crap, condemn your president and question the legitimacy of his position and his administration's decision. Even the 400 pounds gorilla like Dennis Miller deserted on that matter after 9/11. The fact is that, Mr. Moore's accomplishment is more than just a speech in Oscar ceremony. I've been following his works since 1999, a little while after I came to Canada. I remember his fabulous documentary Awful Truth then his book Stupid White Men and finally his documentary Bowling for Columbine. His success in that movie is more than just getting his voice heard by average Americans. He and two of the stars in his movie, made the giant chain store K-Mart to stop selling bullets in a its stores as well as the real image that he showed from that old jerk/dinosaur Charlton Heston. I remember the commercials of Heston's phony videos on Christianity, and the way he was acting in those videos as if he was a saint himself. When in a scene of Bowling... Heston turned his back to the camera and walked away from his guest at his own house, one could feel how awful is the bitterness of reality.

Great job, Michael! Keep up on it.

Monday, April 07, 2003

After all this long period of uncertainties in my personal life, I get a bit of peace of mind, but the world is on fire and how one could enjoy this personal moment. The war, S.A.R.S. and the economy. It's like chaos is finding its routine to happen on a regular basis. When was the last time that human beings had peace of mind in this planet, ever, at all? Is chaos and confusion nature of man kind or it's just some of us who are trouble makers?